℃ore of the earth; 

January 2026 (♑︎)

too many eyes are on me

is this a  safe space? 

i am a turtle without a shell

i am baking in the sun

statuesque in the cold

my frozenness is hollow 

✍︎ today i woke up by the sound of someone singing opera outside my window

i felt unlucky,

ultimately, i think it’s beautiful to share ur gifts with the world

i would've rather it had been birds though

▫︎ i will pray to be more patient with humans moving forward

i think im already patient with them enough

what more do they want from me?

my peace tends to make them intimidated but i love waiting and seeing

time gawks here

and it’s still a sound i wouldn’t mind waking up to

✏︎ my writing so far has been concerning and introspective 

i need an editor to carve away the excess fat

i hope there’s something stiff like the bones of cohesion left

i’ll keep them out to dry as procrastination

the less the lighter

⍗ i don’t write for the reader,

i write for the answers to coddle me with pity. 

i am trying to understand earth to its core

archaeology sift,

✠ i always think abt that movie of scientists who were married & obsessed w volcanos (Fire of Love)

spoiler alert:***

that which they loved consumed them

together they embraced the core of the earth

not even the bones affirming their footprints on earth remained

imagine becoming consumed completely by an element on an earth that’s been around much longer than you

how rare it must be to merge with a saturated element

returning to the mother

i watch in jealously

i pull the skin back from this film like it’s nectar inside will heal me

carefully, it drips down my hands

when i drink this motion picture i know my purpose is the same as theirs

my search for understanding will consume me

im so obsessed w integration it makes me feel raw, sensitive& alive.. 

i emerge in this world see-through

watch as your hand passes through me

there’s nothing like feeling alive

❖ a great friend since high-school told me yesterday my chaos is my normal. 

am i a tornado season?

that’s good to know

i always thought i was boring

when love is normal i get suspicious

i always knew i was anxious

i think i deserve safety

maybe securing it will be the generational curse breaker

past selves are counting on me and the numerical choir become song

⁒ when i wake up i feel the weight of the truman show

all these eyes but i’m at the loneliest i’ve ever been in my life

take some chalk and mark it down here

i’m singular as when the wind pushes things across the world to another destination

being pulled far from home

or being lured towards another?

i sit by the fireplace listening as time tells

(im so corny omg :o )

⎽ every time i jump i land on all fours like a cat

i kiss the earth this way, a begging prayer

a reminder to stand

✂︎ one moment in time i once thought earth's atmosphere was really a collection of standing diversified humans, all holding hands around it’s circular circumference ⎯ stuck in time

they looked back at me as i looked back at them

so i felt so seen

they were all smiling, for different reasons

i can’t be alone if all my friends are gathered here

⚠︎bring back oversharing in a collective consciousness way

being wrong in a human way

connecting with community in a drowning ignorance at your nearest creek way

hold my own hands like the hand holding of hands over our shared earth way

never break your smile way

#manifesting

⛅︎i know which direction to go and its internal

arrows point to the core of it

my heart as my compass

i will save me and find all the answers by sharing myself with the world

hear me pry me open

i’ll be here for a while, you can always take up shelter

☇whatever, (ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ translation: hold my hand ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ)